Friday, September 30, 2011

Stairway to heaven

Dear sweet friends,
My mum walked the stairway up to heaven this morning
She is no longer suffering in pain 
She is reunited with my daddy {the love of her life}
my brother, her grandson Kyle and other family members
all waiting to greet her!
God Bless you mom
I will miss you 
but you will always be in my heart 
and I will treasure all those happy memories!
I love you with all my heart!
Rest in peace sweet angel

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Waiting for Jesus

Dear friends
My heart is heavy today!
Last night mum told us she is ready to go to heaven, she wants to die!
Such hard words to hear coming from the person who gave birth to me, whom is always my strength and inspiration, someone I love so much!
Mum has always been so strong and lived a very simple life, loved everyone and accepted all for their good and never seen the bad in anyone.
I thanked her for being a wonderful mum and an awesome grandma to my children!
I asked her to come home with me so I can take care of her and be by her side when Jesus comes to take her home. 
She said she didn't want to burden anyone or us have bad memories!
Even now she is still taking care of us.
Maybe its selfish of me but all I want is for her to come home with me, lay by her side and hold her hand as we wait for Jesus to come and take her home.
Maybe she will change her mind.....
We are meeting with the Hospice team today!
Thank you dear friends for your prayers.
Luv you all so much


Sunday, September 25, 2011

My Sweet Momma

         Hello sweet dear friends, 
I can't believe it has been so long since my last post!
 Summer was crazy hectic to say the least!!
We had buried hubbys' aunt, and 2 dear friends!
Also my nephew Kyle lost his battle with leukemia.
Kyle {19} was diagnosed in February and lost his battle in July.
He was so strong and such an inspiration to all of us!
{Mum and Me in June}
August 10th my mum {Pat} was admitted into the hospital,
She had a heart attack, then her kidneys were failing, she has 3 blockages in her heart and a valve needs to be replaced, but she is too weak for any surgurys at this time.
She has been thru so much, fluid filled her lungs, she had 2 blood clots in her arms, internal bleeding {which was an ulcer} her oxygen, blood pressure, and hemaglobins were fluxuating! 
Now she is slipping into depression! 
45 days later she is still there laying in bed staring at the ceiling. Girls I am so broken hearted, I feel so bad that there is nothing I can do! I wish I could help her, I wish I could get her out of bed and take her for a walk outside to see the leaves changing colors and smell the fresh air! 
 I wish I wish I wish!
Mum is afraid to be alone and wants only my dear husband to stay with her at night.
No one else will do, she feels safe and comfortable with him being there.
Bless her heart.
My brother stays occasionally to give hubby a break but he is still mourning his sons death so it is very hard for him to sit and watch helplessly too!

Hubby loves mum as if she were his own mother and she loves him just as much!
They are so cute together, he feeds her and makes sure she has anything she could possibly need! I know she is in good hands!
He is such a blessing!
I don't mean to spill all this on your laps 
but many of you have emailed and asked if I was ok!
I am ok.....
hanging on to Gods hand and praying for his strength and healing.
Mum is 79 and says she has lived a good life and ready to go home but we are praying she has enough strength to make it a few more years!
Thank you all so very much for being such dear friends, 
your warm thoughts and prayers for my mum are greatly appreciated!
Much Love,